This journey is one that takes a long time. It ebbs and flows. I've been on this journey for my whole life, not really even knowing I was until five years ago.
It's a constant struggle to accept your body. Even if it's as picture perfect as all the magazines. Women are taught to still constantly critique their physiques.
And for those of us with different bodies, ones that are seen as bad, selfish, immoral, accepting your body can be even more difficult.
But it can be done.
Even though it takes time.
I purchased this adorable romper from ASOS Curve almost a year ago. I got it right before Christmas. I had visions of wearing tights underneath with boots and sweaters overtop. So many ways to mix and match!
But when I first put it on I was unable to see past my protruding stomach. Dramatically dipping as the garment turned into shorts.
I wasn't quite ready to accept that part of my body. I had in the past, when I started wearing my shirts tucked into my skirts, but my body had changed since then, so I had to learn to accept that part all over again. And, as i've mentioned, it can take a lot of time and effort.
Every now and then i'd put the romper on again, wondering if I had built up the courage to wear it. The months went by in the form of seasons, and now, at almost winter of the next year, I was able to finally wear it to day.
I had finally gotten to the point where I could wear it around my house for more than half an hour. I wore it all morning, and then out for a study session at a coffee shop. And everything was ok. In fact, everything was great. Rompers are so comfortable! And I felt, and looked good. Which can be a very helpful feeling at times.
So my words to you dear readers, wherever you are in your self acceptance journey, is to remember, in the words of Morrissey, that these things take time.
But I am a testament to the fact that, while you may falter, you can do it.